I’m currently reading / listening to “Daring Greatly: How the Courage to Be Vulnerable Transform the Way We Live, Love, Parent and Lead”, by Brene Brown, Ph.D., LMSW. She is well known for her research on shame and vulnerability, I initially found her via her TED talks a few years ago and I fell in love with both her research and her presentation style.
I mention it because as I’ve started my training process, it’s made me more self-aware on a variety of levels; it’s hard work to recognize WHY I don’t want to be accountable and then ‘fess up.
“I’m very busy you know, training for the MR340, writing a thesis, taking a final class so I can actually finish my masters, and oh by the way, I’ve started in a completely different role at work, lots to learn and do — gotta get off to a fast start, right?”
I want you to see me as the most disciplined, focused, intensely successful but ever-so-balanced “pushin-50” woman you’ve ever met. Sigh. But you know what? I lay awake in the middle of the night just sure I’m not going to get it all done, I’m going to fail somewhere, and while the daylight makes that go away … night-times I still struggle with the demons of “not enough”.
 Hmm, we wanted to embed Brene Brown’s talk here but TED is redoing their site, and so we’ll have to come back and check. Maybe the link will work later. For now, if you want you can watch the video at TED